time has seriously gone by so fast it scares me. im excited to go, but VERY nervous. i have no idea what to expect. so just not knowing is whats getting to me. im trying to keep in mind that God is in control. but everyone please pray for peace of mind, and that i would have a servants heart, that i would really want to see God have His way and that my own desires wouldnt take over.
this past week was Holy Spirit week, and a lot of cool things happened. its crazy to see how personal God is, and experience Him. i keep thinking about how before my time here i had no idea this part of God existed, i had no idea He REALLY does love us and desire us. He just wants relationship with us, that we would LOVE Him and worship Him. its a process but i just want to get to a place where i really am thankful for all He has done, where i want to completely be sold out for Him becuase He is worthy, not out of obligation or fear. so many times i TRY. i work and work to hopefully get approval from Him. but then i have to think that it is a gift- the salvation we have in Jesus is a gift- all i h ave to do is recieve it. and even recieving it is hard because that means i have to trust Him when i have absolutely NO idea whats going to happen. and thats when fear comes in. i get scared becuase i have no idea what God's going to say or do , and i get scared that He wont do anything. and of course thats not true, but thats what i think. i get so anxious. and He is faithful and patient. im trying to have a thankful heart because He is constantly proving me wrong by showing up and answering my prayers. I put Him in a box, and He still shows up. its crazy. not i just have to accept what He offers- freedom, love, joy, peace, everlasting life, comfort, truth, etc. it really does all come down to faith- to trutsing that God is who He says He is no matter what. He's going to be the same no matter what i do , think , or say. it's crazy!!! you'd think it would be the easiest choice to make! but trust is so hard for me, and im not sure why! so please also that i would trust- that i would trust GOD in all He is, does, and says. that i would have strength to keep moving forward and not turn back to the things of this world, and that i would desire Him and His will, and only that. that i would fall in love with Him!
i want to thank everyone who has supported me and prayed for me while ive been here. its so comforting to know that people care. and even though i cant call everyone up on the phone, because i dont have a lot of free time, i want everyone to be assured that i love you and am blessed to have you in my life. thank you for being positive influences in my life- for being loving and supporting me financially as well as prayerfully. and for dealing with me!! i know i am a person who is picky and selfish sometimes! so thank you for not losing your temper! thank you for giving. i love you all! and i will miss everyone during the holidays! i probably wont update this while i am on outreach, becuase i doubt ill have internet. however, if i do i promise that ill send an email out !
heres the specifics that i know about my outreach!
we are going to calcutta, kalimpong, and darjeeling.
we will be working with train station kids (like in slumdog millionaire), street evangelism and open airs. - doing skits and dances in the streets. we will also be preaching in churches ( I HAVE TO PREPARE A SERMON!!!! AHH!!) and discipling the people of india. also prayer walking and basically anything else needed of us.
we are going to Kathmandu, and dadeldhura.
the majority of our time in nepal will be spent hiking to villages preaching the Gospel. the majority of the villages havent heard the name of Jesus, so that should be interesting. and here we will also be preaching in churches and doing skits and stuff for whoever will listen. we will be traveling a lot and doing whatever God wants.
im pretty nervous because ive never really lived by the Spirit! asking God what He wants us to do and where He wants us to. all on the spot! its crazy to me not having everything planned out!! i will take plenty of pictures and videos!
please also pray for:
1. good health
2. safe travels
3. that we would be prepared mentally and spiritually. that we would constantly be walking in the authority of Jesus Christ
4. we would keep our hearts , mind, and eyes focused on God and not ourselves.
5. for joy, peace of mind, and rest. that we wouldnt be fearful but trust God.
6. for our families safety as well as joy during the holidays and every day life! for peace of mind for them too!
7. again for servant hearts , and that we would not be apathetic or selfish; but really ask and do what God wants, and see/love the people of these countries like God does.
thanks again everyone!!! i LOVE YOU ALL! :)